family vacation with the Maleks~

yep...this time its with the Maleks at DZ Nature Resort, Ulu Kimanis...okayy..1st impression of the resort when we arrived? its looks nice..but one problem..it was so hot there! no shades of trees..we were all sweating when we were checking-in at the lobby, can u believe that? fuh..but no matter..its just the temperature there..the facilities were quite okayy..thankfully there was air-conditioningin our room..switched it on full blast! woohooo~~
after settling in into our rooms..we went to the air terjun at around 1.30pm..all of us imagined it too be big and an open area..aha..the jokes' on us..it was a wee bit shmoll..and the water was a bit murky..urgh..but the others didn't care..they all just jumped in =.=
later dat nite we had a barbeque and a bit karaoke..eat, sing, laughed, bla bla bla..
and the next morning! jungle-trekking! a bit excited..hehe..mum sprayed a LOT of insect repellent on us..i mean a LOT! all over our legs..haha..its to prevent the leeches actually..and off we go! at 1st it was ok..a bit hilly..but due to me being a couch potato for weeks..i got tired easily..yay me..it wasn't very far and i was already exhausted..darn~
aha..then the worst part came..can u guess what it was?? *drums rolling*....'TANGGA'! OMG! we went up and up and up and up....it was really tiring as we went uphill..but as we were going downhill it was ok...OK MY ASS..the base of my shoes came off on the side..so i have to walk slowly as to stop it from coming off completely..as the result..i was one of the lasts to arrive..pfft.. XD
overall it was funnn..a vacation with a lot of family members is indeed the best! can't wait for the next family vacation! weee~~

u call it excuses..I call it reasons..

nope...not another depression mode post..just feel like posting sumthing..although i'm damn sleepy..yawn~~
yeah i know the recent blog was a bit..wat do u call it..'emo'? heh..its nothin to serious really..people do have those kind of 'moments' sumtimes..proves that i'm human. yay? okay..lets get to the point..hmm..i think it was because i was really2 upset and plus the hormones? it was that time of the month when us females sumtimes feel a bit overly sensitive and get depressed easily...damn those hormones! owh youth~~
yeah rite..excuses excuses..but wat the hell? felt a bit of relief after expressing myself..thanx a lot to my beloved and dear friends feefa and zue for cheerin me up! big hugs and sloppy kisses to both of u! luv u guys! muax2!
nevertheless..i'm also lookin forward for them to come back from egypt..feefa, zue, mimie and nema! miss u guys so so much! hurry up and come back will ya please?? gettin all excited here..aha
so now i'm on my holiday..still one more month to go..ahhh...sweet vacation~~
mangas and animes are my faithful companions during my months long holiday..shoujo mangas makes me feel all giddy and happy and all sorts of sweet feelings..and animes? onepiece to be exact..its super funny and awesome!! luffy and the way he speaks..seriously all he thinks about is niku and adventure and he really is dense did u notice that? haaaa..watchin animes warms the cockles of my heart..urgh..*xcuze me while i puke*
owh well..dats about it though..wat i've been doing these past weeks..seclude myself in my safe haven and spending my freetime with my laptop..fufufufu~~

u readers suggest a title 4 me...

stop saying don't show ur tantrum..when u say dat..how do u expect me to respond..i am already pissed off n annoyed and u expect me to put on a calm face, walk away and do as u say??? do u think i'm a robot or just a puppet?? u think i hav no emotions or feelings at all?? do u know how hard it is to fight back tears and just walk away? to take the step..to move a muscle when my mind is clouded by hatred and extreme annoyance..bcuz of u..now i would put on a poker face and act like i'm fine when i'm mad or sad in front of people..being fake is hard..made me feel like i'm lying to people..not showing wat i was feeling at dat moment..its hard 2 open up even to my closest and nicest friends..emotions..feelings build up..angry and sad especially..piling up..piling up...and now i'm a person with a lot of negative thoughts..i'm pessimistic..my heart is rotten...i hate this..i hate this..SHIT! tell me a good reason not to take that blade just right there beside me and slit my wrists rite now?? wats my reason to live?? family? they think i'm useless..i am useless..all i do is just sit around at home..lock myself up in the room in front of the laptop..next..friends? ouh..they're far away...my phone is always silent during the holidays...nex, boyfriend? none..the guy i like doesn't like me back..unrequited love..dats wat people are calling it..lets see..who else?? wat else?? now i just hate people lying to me..lies lies lies..u say u like me..yeah rite..u say dat to all the girls u set ur eyes ur eyes on..sumone said i'm ego..i'm not willing to accept sumone who so called syg me..huh..dats just BULLSHIT..stop saying dat to me..it's annoying..i hate it..stay away from me..i hate people making a fool out of me..i'm not an idiot..don't make me spit out bad words bcuz of u..i'm wasting my time and energy just thinking about it..stay away..i'm deleting u from my life..no matter how innocent u think u are..i'm not changing my mind..
i know i'm writing all these just bcuz i'm upset..yeah..i'm cooling down..i don't have anyone to share dis with..maybe i'll feel pathetic if i spill all of these to anyone..yeah..maybe..but i hav no other choice..i hav to write or type it all down..i hate doing this..but if don't do dis..i'm afraid i'm gonna snap..or worst..get insane..losing my mind is just one annoyance away if i don't let it out..if u're reading this..i know u people will start judging me..looking at me in a different way..but wat the hell..i'm doing this bcuz i want to..so shut up and just read..okayy dats a bit harsh..sory..