Monday, September 14, 2009

loved you once, love you still, always have, always will..









recent pics and the lyrics of my new "can't get enough of it" song....

Bitter Heart-Zee Avi


Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.
And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name.
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

Monday, September 7, 2009

I won't mess with your head or play with your heart... because i'm a real girl, and I finish what I start..


"Say"-John Mayer

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations

Say what you need to say [x8]

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only . . .

Say what you need to say [x8]

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say [x24]


somehow..this song is very..what do u call it? soothing? sumthin like dat..although the lyrics are repeating the same sentence..over and over again.."say what u need to say"..but still..i think its the melody..just close your eyes and listen to the song..u'll feel the same way i do.. =)

one thing kept me wondering for these past few days..was it the right move to say what i need to say? it feels..a bit different now..it was going on pretty good i guess before...till i screwed it all up..but one thing's for sure..at least i wont be thinking ''what if"'..and wondering what could have happen if i didnt tell. assumptions can give me high hopes. that's not good.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Coz when a heart breaks, no it don't break even.

dialogue inside my head. its playing on repeat. over and over again.

do u love him? yes.
do u think about him all the time? always.
what do u feel when u meet up with him? eternal bliss~
why do u love him? still figuring that out. why oo why?
does he loves u back? sadly....NO.
do u want to get over him? no other choice. but do i really have to?
have u ever tried to get over him? countless of times.
how long have u been in love with him? all my life.
so what now? no idea.
why do i never get the guy i want? look in the mirror.

"True love is when you shed a tear and still want him. It's when he ignores you and you still love him. It's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say i'm happy for you, when all you do is cry..and cry.."

lastly..does this blog sounds cheezy to you? yep.

sigh....