yuran 4 2nd sem=RM1338, driving lessons=RM300++ (i suck when it comes 2 driving =p), jpj test=RM150 (blum konfem lulus lg), goggles+swimming attire=RM200++, digicam=RM1899...etc...
Ira ni mmg high maintenance la...so sorry Papa n Mama..it seems that i'm only a burden to both of u..suda la result not very good..haish..very2 disappointing..
sometimes i wonder..wouldn't it better i never existed? apa sumbangan me to the family? kinda hard to come up with an answer 4 that. i'm just a bad investment. mmg rugi teruk la my parents. spend thousands but in return, only a major disappointment. hmm..
a will to my parents: if i ever end up having to depend on a life supporting-machine..just pull the plug..at least i would no longer be a burden to both of u. minus one child to support. i'm saying this with a heavy heart, but if its for the best, then... (wow. i almost cried while thinking bout this)
besides the money issue.. i also have 2 deal with my brokenheart..i'm letting him go..
i need 2 find another guy who i can trust and will make me really happy. please come soon whoever u are..
*Ira in deppressed -mode*
till then...
~au revoir~
6 comments:
sabar sayang..
jangan fikir mcm tuh,i mean bile u kata wouldn't it better if i never existed...
setiap kejadian kan ada sumbangannya..uhuk2
after tis usaha lagik!!
about ur brokenheart tuh,aiyaa u deserve for a better one la ira..cuma ur mr perfect tuh still with a wrong woman..haha
aja-aja darling!!
doi..2 mmg tugas parents da la..all u have to do is bljr baik2..dpt keja bgz..leh bls blk jasa drg..minus 1 child kunu..ko ni doa 2 tau..aku pun pernah tpkir g2..but afta daus nasihat aku..br aku sedar skit2..2la last sem results aku ada better sket..aku ni yg palui2 leh bt pa lg ko kan..hoho..yg broken heart 2 pkara besa..ni br sket..2la ko kna dkt kan ati ngn Allah minta petunjuk..mesti sabar..2ja..datz wat i did n it works..doi mcm la kta ni bkn 1 uma mo nasihat ko..hahaha..tp since ko luah d sni aku respon sni ja la..hoho
aih..ko ada daus meh..ira?? si amat pun ada gf suda..kalu ira bgtau dia ka, komplen2 sama dia ka pelik pla tu so ndamau kacau dorg. ni phase kjap ja meh..i hope so la..just goin through life..i get it. all i need is support & optimism & i'll be fine!! woohooo~~~
keh3 =D
so sad reading your post.
is there still room for advice? well stay strong ja la. don't give up on your studies.
think positive. learn from mistakes. =)
prkra biasa bila stress ni... salu pkir bkn2
anywy,try to think +ve bebeh..
woh... i'm sure ramai perlukan kamu! cuma kadang2 kita tak sedar je... buat orang tersenyum to even a stanger which brighthens one's day pun kira sumbangan apa. ngehe and now I'm reading ur blog with a smile.
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