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Pray & Pray for a Stronger Heart

2011-04-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

Syukur Alhamdulillah. I'm 5 days "sober"! Hope it would last this time. =)

Smiling but close to tears

2011-04-03T01:46:00.000+08:00

Started 9 years ago. Realised about it 4 years ago. Came clean about it, a year later. Years and years of torment. When will this end? I'm tired. This can't go on forever.

Friends to die for~

2011-03-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

"Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends."
~ Richard Bach

I cannot even imagine where I would be today were it not for
that handful of friends who have given me a heart full of joy.
Let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun.
~ Charles R. Swindoll

-Pic by Syai-

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same

2011-03-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

She glances at the photo, and the pilot light of memory flickers in her eyes. ~Frank Deford

Never forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours. - Ludwig Van Beethoven

Friends are the most important part of your life. Treasure the tears, treasure the laughter, but most importantly, treasure the memories. - Dave Brenner

Someday many years from now
We'll sit beside the candles glow
Exchanging tales about our past
And laughing as the memories flow
And when that distant day arrives
I know it will be understood
That friendship is the key to live
And we were friends and it was good. - Eileen Hehl

My last semester in UMS. It is time to collect and cherish every moment, so that I will have precious, precious memories to hold onto, for it will be days..weeks...months or even years till we will ever meet again~ -Ira, 2011-

The hardest person to get over with, is the one you never had but made you happy

2011-03-24T13:51:00.000+08:00

Love is something you cant describe ; like the look of a rose, the smell of rain, taste of the water, or the feeling of forever. ♥

Message from the Heart

2011-03-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

"Purest Of Pain"

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...

This song just fits with what I'm going through right now!
Ahhh...young love...is just crappy

=_=

2010-03-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

I am so friggin TIRED!!

a chance to do some environmental...thingy?

2010-02-27T17:48:00.000+08:00

yosh! on the morning of 27th Feb 2010, some of the 2nd Year Marine Science students which are Pat, JJ, Fatin, Hidayah, Syai, Azzah, Kiay and me of course along with some other students, organized by Green Pulse UMS contributed on an activity of saving our Earth! and what we did was....*drum rolls*

Mangrove Planting!

yep..it was held around Likas Bay, around the bridge in front of Yayasan Sabah..so if u see any small mangrove trees, we planted those! *proud of myself* hoho~
at first, we wore our boots and go walking around the muddy area to plant the mangroves, but! it was either of out legs were stuck in the mud or just the boot got left behind in the mud. SO!
we came to a very "wise" decision, to take off our boots. well, the walking and planting process did became easier. However! the muddy area got a lot of shells and other sharp objects..so our feet are now covered with cuts and bruises..nice...and now i'm walking around the house with bandages all over my feet...eheh~
owh! and one more thing happened! the MC announced that it was photo session time with VIPs, and that time i was the only one who hasn't washed off the mud yet. so i was saying "i wanna go wash my hands". then! u know what?!
one of the VIPs picked up the thing to siram pokok..i forgot the name actually..that VIP saying something like "here cuci tangan" to me, and started pouring the water. so i just instinctively washed my hands la..then all of a sudden, the photographers started snapping photos of that scene! aiyaa! i'm not sure whether i'm supposed to be embarrassed or proud of it! huhu..

well that's it. and here are some of the pictures we took!

argh!

2010-02-25T18:11:00.000+08:00

Hey guys..i know i'm supposed to update about FC and the Meteorology Campaign, but now i'll just upload the page-picture which summarizes both events...for now i just need to do something to vent out my anger+stress+pressure etc..so here goes...

ARGHHHHHH!!!

WHAT THE HELL!!!

ehem2..this is due to the work-overload which i'm getting non-stop these days...

BMRI Night
Earth Hour
Marine Science Exco
Ketua Exco Portfolio Infrastruktur SST
ASSIGNMENTS & PRESENTATIONS!
MIDTERMS!
FINANCIAL PROBLEM (i'm broke....eheh)

haih...just bear with it la..it would be a good experience for me..i HOPE so. *think positive*

...miss me?

2010-02-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

i'll be updating my blog soon..most probably would be about these upcoming events:

-Fisheries Meteorology Seminar-

-Fiesta Cahaya-

My Field Trip to Sulaman and 3rd Semester Exam Schedule! yikes!

2009-11-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

you! yeah you! i know you're jealous of me! haaa! being a mariner means going on a lot of field trips! muahaha~
this time, the field trip is for Marine Ecosystem. we went to Sulaman to observe the mangroves and seagrasses. it was FUN! >.<

just arrived

4/5 of the weows

posing with the mangrove seedlings

and as you can see from the picture above..we look like hippos soaking in the mud right? haha!
*btw we were scavenging for seagrasses*

yay! we got the seagrasses!

and....here it is..my exam schedule..
exams are just around the corner..around the corner my ass! its next week! and what are you doing here ira? lalala....beats me~

-4th November-
Marine Organic Chemistry
(*crickets* urmmm...this is a bit similar to Chemical Oceanography..similar in terms of 'SUSAH GILAK' and have to memorize a lot! i mean a lot! i'm not kidding here! *faints*)
Marine Ecosystem
(this is ok i guess..easy to understand and remember *wink*)

-6th November-
Principles of Accounting
*scratches head* yeah i know..a mariner taking accounting? heh~)

-7th November-
Management
(again...a mariner taking management..funny right... =.=)

-10th November-
Fisheries Science
(weeee..its all about fishy...NOT! only a wittle bit about fish..the most part is the analysis..thingy..*drop dead*)

-16th November-
Mandarin Level 2
(hmm..got 6 days gap so should be okay..i hope!)

and after that..FREEDOM!!!one month++ of holiday! wooho0o0o0o~
owh yeah..InsyaAllah, on the 17th of November, some of the mariners plans to go to Kundasang for a day trip..and I'm coming along! yay! road trip baybeh!
i'm gonna bring my camera and take loads and loads of peektures!!! i'm so0o0o looking forward to this trip! so be patient and wait till i'm finished with my exams folks!

WISH ME LUCK!
>.<

The end is where i begin...

2009-10-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

wow.i just have to say this. WOW.
i never knew u were that type of person. immature. childish. foolish. want me to add more?
this is a side of you that i disapprove. twisting the truth and not telling the whole story. indeed a cowardly behavior. how could i be so blind...
finally. i have found my reason. a reason to open my eyes and snap out of it! thank u GOD. and thank u to that certain someone for the heads up. i know u are thinking of what's best for me. thank u for that.
he is not worth it. finally i can say this. owh yeah. i also can sing this phrase.

"I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over"

hello brand new world! =)
another one of my favourite song. Enjoy~

"All Fall Down"

Step out the door and it feels like rain
That's the sound (that's the sound) on your window pane
Take to the streets but you can't ignore
That's the sound (that's the sound) you're waiting for

If ever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
Whenever your world starts crashing down
That's where you'll find me

Yeah God love your soul and your aching bones
Take a breath, take a step, meet me down below
Everyone's the same
our fingers to our toes
We just can't get it right
But we're on the road

If ever your will starts crashing down
Whenever your will starts crashing down
Whenever your will starts crashing down
That's when you find me.

(Yeah) Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown

Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Strong till you break
Know that we all fall down

If ever your will starts crashing down
Whenever your will starts crashing down
If ever your will starts crashing down
That's when you'll find (find) me

Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Strong till you break
Know that we all fall down

All fall down, we all fall down, all fall down
We all fall down, all fall down, all fall down

Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Strong till you break
Know that we all fall down

>.<

farewell..

2009-10-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

Goodbye.
All the best.
Till we meet again.
Itterashai. (translation: Go and come back again)
=)

loved you once, love you still, always have, always will..

2009-09-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

recent pics and the lyrics of my new "can't get enough of it" song....

Bitter Heart-Zee Avi

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.
And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name.
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

I won't mess with your head or play with your heart... because i'm a real girl, and I finish what I start..

2009-09-07T01:16:00.000+08:00

"Say"-John Mayer

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations

Say what you need to say [x8]

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only . . .

Say what you need to say [x8]

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say [x24]

somehow..this song is very..what do u call it? soothing? sumthin like dat..although the lyrics are repeating the same sentence..over and over again.."say what u need to say"..but still..i think its the melody..just close your eyes and listen to the song..u'll feel the same way i do.. =)

one thing kept me wondering for these past few days..was it the right move to say what i need to say? it feels..a bit different now..it was going on pretty good i guess before...till i screwed it all up..but one thing's for sure..at least i wont be thinking ''what if"'..and wondering what could have happen if i didnt tell. assumptions can give me high hopes. that's not good.

Coz when a heart breaks, no it don't break even.

2009-09-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

dialogue inside my head. its playing on repeat. over and over again.

do u love him? yes.
do u think about him all the time? always.
what do u feel when u meet up with him? eternal bliss~
why do u love him? still figuring that out. why oo why?
does he loves u back? sadly....NO.
do u want to get over him? no other choice. but do i really have to?
have u ever tried to get over him? countless of times.
how long have u been in love with him? all my life.
so what now? no idea.
why do i never get the guy i want? look in the mirror.

"True love is when you shed a tear and still want him. It's when he ignores you and you still love him. It's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say i'm happy for you, when all you do is cry..and cry.."

lastly..does this blog sounds cheezy to you? yep.

sigh....

I'm falling to pieces...

2009-08-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

during asmi's bday..and mimie brought over his shisha..

fisheries science camp..8th August~

sungkai at imperial hotel..1st day of puasa~

lab tyme! hehe..the aroma of stinky fish was all over the place

trip to KB! went 2 mimie's sister's wedding~

some recent pictures of wats happening in my life..and i'm lovin every single momen!

also..the lyrics of my favourite song...can't get enough of it..njoy~~

Break Even-The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a *** that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even.

Her best days will be some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake, she's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, (One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces, ('Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a *** that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break, no it don't break, no it don't break even no.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, (One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces, ('Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, It don't break even, no

some recent pictures of wats happening in my life..and i'm lovin every single moment!

new student intake 2009/2010...weee~~

2009-07-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

yep3..new students are enrolling in UMS....*excited*
i was involved with the 'Sesi Bersama Sekolah-SST'...it was a two-days event which was held on 1st and 3rd July...okayyy..so on the 1st of July,had 2 wake up really early bcuz we were required to be there at UMS by 7.30am and also bcuz i hav 2 send my lil bro Nadzmi 2 skul..heh...i arrived at Dewan canselor at 7am! owh boy was i early! aha~
so no choice but to wait inside the car 4 about 20 minutes till i got a message from Pei Wen..got out of the car and went straight to the dc foyer,then wait again till about 8am sumthin and all of us went into the main hall..and the worst part begins....we, the seniors, had to listen to all the taklimats till 12.30pm! its like we had to undergo the orientation all over again..sheesh..
well,it wasn't all that bad..i think..soooooo..after all the taklimats were done *finally*, Tor, Pei Wen and I get to meet our marine science juniors..yay! total of 39 new marine science juniors...then we all queued up and headed straight to our bus and off we went to IPMB! (IPMB=AA) *wink wink*
when we arrived, we went to bilik seminar 1 for a quick intro and briefing of the IPMB and its lecturers..we, the marine science students combined with aquaculture students and the whole bilik seminar 1 was full..huhu..
tick tock tick tock..and done with the briefing..tyme for the seniors to bring the juniors on a quick tour around IPMB..the aquaculture students went to the hatchery, while we went to the aquarium and the boat hse..*quick peek at AA* and we wrapped it up at 5pm and went back to our respective dwellings...
3rd July! the registration day for the juniors! okay..so i arrived at the UMS lbry at about 8am..it was soo crowded! huuu...glad i don't hav to register on that day..at the libry foyer, a lot of juniors asked us about the registration thing..we had to repeat the same explanation over and over and over again..aha~
then after that the seniors were told to go into the libry..we had to go through the whole crowd!! luckily the juniors let us through..thanx! so when we got into the libry, we had to do the same thing we did outside.."explaining" our throats we really2 dry by then...huh~
i forgot what tyme it was when we had our lunch...after that we went in again and this tyme into the megalab...we had to assist the juniors on how to login and do the members registration for the ums portal...
but there was one heck of a problem..server down! poor juniors..they had to refresh the website a LOT of tymes just to register...there was this girl..she waited there for about 3 hours! OMG..so kesian oo..and for us the seniors,we supervised the juniors, went round and round the cubicles to check on them...seriously my legs were killing me at that tyme..have to stand and walk around for hours...i repeat..HOURS...but it was worth the experience though..sadly,the technicians told us that the website need to be repaired..so the juniors had to go back and register at another tyme..hmmmm...so i left, and went to Sabah divers to collect my dive card..yay!! so thats it folks! a fun and exciting but really tiring day!
till next tyme...
~au revoir~

family vacation with the Maleks~

2009-06-12T17:39:00.001+08:00

yep...this time its with the Maleks at DZ Nature Resort, Ulu Kimanis...okayy..1st impression of the resort when we arrived? its looks nice..but one problem..it was so hot there! no shades of trees..we were all sweating when we were checking-in at the lobby, can u believe that? fuh..but no matter..its just the temperature there..the facilities were quite okayy..thankfully there was air-conditioningin our room..switched it on full blast! woohooo~~
after settling in into our rooms..we went to the air terjun at around 1.30pm..all of us imagined it too be big and an open area..aha..the jokes' on us..it was a wee bit shmoll..and the water was a bit murky..urgh..but the others didn't care..they all just jumped in =.=
later dat nite we had a barbeque and a bit karaoke..eat, sing, laughed, bla bla bla..
and the next morning! jungle-trekking! a bit excited..hehe..mum sprayed a LOT of insect repellent on us..i mean a LOT! all over our legs..haha..its to prevent the leeches actually..and off we go! at 1st it was ok..a bit hilly..but due to me being a couch potato for weeks..i got tired easily..yay me..it wasn't very far and i was already exhausted..darn~
aha..then the worst part came..can u guess what it was?? *drums rolling*....'TANGGA'! OMG! we went up and up and up and up....it was really tiring as we went uphill..but as we were going downhill it was ok...OK MY ASS..the base of my shoes came off on the side..so i have to walk slowly as to stop it from coming off completely..as the result..i was one of the lasts to arrive..pfft.. XD
overall it was funnn..a vacation with a lot of family members is indeed the best! can't wait for the next family vacation! weee~~

u call it excuses..I call it reasons..

2009-06-10T02:17:00.000+08:00

nope...not another depression mode post..just feel like posting sumthing..although i'm damn sleepy..yawn~~
yeah i know the recent blog was a bit..wat do u call it..'emo'? heh..its nothin to serious really..people do have those kind of 'moments' sumtimes..proves that i'm human. yay? okay..lets get to the point..hmm..i think it was because i was really2 upset and plus the hormones? it was that time of the month when us females sumtimes feel a bit overly sensitive and get depressed easily...damn those hormones! owh youth~~
yeah rite..excuses excuses..but wat the hell? felt a bit of relief after expressing myself..thanx a lot to my beloved and dear friends feefa and zue for cheerin me up! big hugs and sloppy kisses to both of u! luv u guys! muax2!
nevertheless..i'm also lookin forward for them to come back from egypt..feefa, zue, mimie and nema! miss u guys so so much! hurry up and come back will ya please?? gettin all excited here..aha
so now i'm on my holiday..still one more month to go..ahhh...sweet vacation~~
mangas and animes are my faithful companions during my months long holiday..shoujo mangas makes me feel all giddy and happy and all sorts of sweet feelings..and animes? onepiece to be exact..its super funny and awesome!! luffy and the way he speaks..seriously all he thinks about is niku and adventure and he really is dense did u notice that? haaaa..watchin animes warms the cockles of my heart..urgh..*xcuze me while i puke*
owh well..dats about it though..wat i've been doing these past weeks..seclude myself in my safe haven and spending my freetime with my laptop..fufufufu~~

u readers suggest a title 4 me...

2009-06-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

stop saying don't show ur tantrum..when u say dat..how do u expect me to respond..i am already pissed off n annoyed and u expect me to put on a calm face, walk away and do as u say??? do u think i'm a robot or just a puppet?? u think i hav no emotions or feelings at all?? do u know how hard it is to fight back tears and just walk away? to take the step..to move a muscle when my mind is clouded by hatred and extreme annoyance..bcuz of u..now i would put on a poker face and act like i'm fine when i'm mad or sad in front of people..being fake is hard..made me feel like i'm lying to people..not showing wat i was feeling at dat moment..its hard 2 open up even to my closest and nicest friends..emotions..feelings build up..angry and sad especially..piling up..piling up...and now i'm a person with a lot of negative thoughts..i'm pessimistic..my heart is rotten...i hate this..i hate this..SHIT! tell me a good reason not to take that blade just right there beside me and slit my wrists rite now?? wats my reason to live?? family? they think i'm useless..i am useless..all i do is just sit around at home..lock myself up in the room in front of the laptop..next..friends? ouh..they're far away...my phone is always silent during the holidays...nex, boyfriend? none..the guy i like doesn't like me back..unrequited love..dats wat people are calling it..lets see..who else?? wat else?? now i just hate people lying to me..lies lies lies..u say u like me..yeah rite..u say dat to all the girls u set ur eyes ur eyes on..sumone said i'm ego..i'm not willing to accept sumone who so called syg me..huh..dats just BULLSHIT..stop saying dat to me..it's annoying..i hate it..stay away from me..i hate people making a fool out of me..i'm not an idiot..don't make me spit out bad words bcuz of u..i'm wasting my time and energy just thinking about it..stay away..i'm deleting u from my life..no matter how innocent u think u are..i'm not changing my mind..
i know i'm writing all these just bcuz i'm upset..yeah..i'm cooling down..i don't have anyone to share dis with..maybe i'll feel pathetic if i spill all of these to anyone..yeah..maybe..but i hav no other choice..i hav to write or type it all down..i hate doing this..but if don't do dis..i'm afraid i'm gonna snap..or worst..get insane..losing my mind is just one annoyance away if i don't let it out..if u're reading this..i know u people will start judging me..looking at me in a different way..but wat the hell..i'm doing this bcuz i want to..so shut up and just read..okayy dats a bit harsh..sory..

my exam schedule..ikut2 ms mui2..eheh..

2009-04-19T13:54:00.000+08:00

iklan jap during chemical oceanography lab...wahahaha!!

-20th Apr-
Basic Chem! yah mmg basic..basic of physical chem, organic chem..suma masuk! adidi..

-22nd Apr-
Bahasa Mandarin..hmmm...ni susa part Hanzi (chinese characters)..mmg cramp tgn trus menulis..wakaka

-24th Apr-
Pengenalan Marikultur..hmm..this one ble thn la..not too easy..not 2 difficult..

-25th Apr-
Renang! ujian bertulis..siap ada essay lg..argh! camana mau jawab ni?

-29th Apr-
Hbgn etnik a.k.a. Sejarah..haha..spm all over again..cipta sejarah sndri..ngiahaha~

-5th May-
Asas Pelayaran & Kepelautan..the practical was a load of fun! hope can do well in this exam..AA! *wink2*

-6th May-
Pengenalan Oseanografi Kimia..huh..dis one..err...errr...got some topics dats a bit difficult..watever~

-7th May-
Bhs & Komunikasi..both lecturer & lecture's are bery2 interesting & fun! weee~

-8th May-
Pengaturcaraan Komputer & Simulasi..*scratches head* most difficult off all the sbjtcs I'm taking this sem! huwaaa...

wokey..3 weeks of exam to go and then i'll be freeeee..free as a bird! yippie! 2months++ of holiday!! ngee..so wish me luck! =P
~au revoir~

What does my birthday say about me?

2009-03-24T20:06:00.000+08:00

Here's what it says:

Has a lot of ideas. *more to crazy ideas*
Difficult to fathom.*yeah..sumtymes*
Thinks forward. *to cheer myself up*
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas.*again..more 2 crazy ideas*
Sharp thinking.
Fine and strong clairvoyance.
Can become good doctors. *yeah right*
Dynamic in personality.
Secretive. *yep!*
Inquisitive.
Knows how to dig secrets.*muahaha..beware~~*
Always thinking.
Less talkative butamiable. *yep!*
Brave and generous.
Patient.
Stubborn and hard-hearted.*agree 100%*
If there is a will, there is a way.
Determined.
Never give up.
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. *dis is right so jan cari psl*
Loves to be alone.*sumtymes*
Thinks differently from others.
Sharp-minded.
Motivates oneself.
Does not appreciate praises. *uih..ira mnta pujik meh* =P
High-spirited.
Well-built and tough. *xcuze moi?*
Deep love and emotions.
Romantic. *haha!*
Uncertain inrelationships.*yesss*
Homely.
Hardworking.
High abilities.
Trustworthy.
Honest and keeps secrets. *ur secrets r safe with me*
Not able to control emotions.*yeah*
Unpredictable

well..now u know a lil bit more bout me!!
aiseh..hehehe..
will continue more about the camp laterrrr~~
=)

~au revoir~

best camp of my life!

2009-03-22T22:54:00.001+08:00

yes it was the most fun, exciting, superb and the BEST camp! still remember it like it was yesterday *exaggerating* hehehehe..
-First day-
as i arrived at the destination which was Odec, UMS..my fren Oly and AA *butterflies in stomach* were already setting up the tents..so i got out of the car, grabbed my luggage and walked straight to the boathouse. breakfast was already served specially prepared by Abg Bujang...who knew man can cook so well? eheh...while eating i managed to take a peek at AA while he was setting up the tents..ahh..so cuteee....wahahaha
ok2..snap out of it! ehem2..as i was saying..after all of my classmates arrived and had their breakfast, we were separated into 6 groups (i was in group 4). group 1,3 and 5 headed to the jetty to practice tossing the lifebuoy and jumping off the jetty, while group 2,4 and 6 gathered at the 'landasan?'. AA had 2 go join the group 1,3 and 5. huwaaaa....
so we waited for the boat 2 go into the water and group 2 boarded 1st and off they go! we watched from afar and saw the group 2 members jump off the boat 1 by one in the middle of the sea! yikes! *getting nervous*
next is our turn..we got on the boat...thennn..abg bujang asked "what do you do when a person fell overboard?'..and the answer is...shout "man-overboard" as loud as u can to alert the captain and the crews ...and wat did we do nex? jump off the boat la..wat else? good thing we were wearing lifejackets..phew...
after we jumped off the boat, we were left out there for about 15 minutes..a bit scary but fun! woohooo!!! us group 4 just laugh and laugh while waiting 2 be fetched..hehe
after we were done with man-overboard practise, we went 2 the jetty as we were switching tasks with the other groups..AA was at the jetty! yay!! as we got nearer 2 the end of the jetty...sumthin happened....

~to be continued as i am getting REALLY2 sleepy...later!~ =P

men do look good in uniforms..seriously.. =P

2009-03-04T20:44:00.000+08:00

ehem2..it's been a while since i've written nonsensical stuff on this blog..ngiahaha!
ok2..on March 3rd 2009, we, the 1st year marine science students gained experience of visiting a navy & maritime ship..weee~~
the navy ship was huge!! and full of good-looking men in white uniforms..huhu..it was heaven i tell ya..and not forgetting..i get to 'cuci mata' cuz AA was there..hehe..only certain people know bout this.. *winkwink*
while on board..1stly we were given an introductory briefing on the navy vessel, KD Pahang. after dat we were separated into 3 groups *AA was in my group too!*..and off we go touring the ship..we went to the bridge, front deck and the CIC(Combat Information Centre)..took some pictures also..
then after finish touring the navy ship..it was group photo session time! smile,snap! smile,snap! smile,snap! done! and off to the next ship..the maritime vessel!
the maritime vessel was a bit smaller than the navy vessel..and not forgetting old-fashioned since it was made in 1984..huhu..but it used to be a navy vessel so there was a 57mm cannon..
overall it was a load of fun!! i can't wait for another field trip with the others!
hmmm..so little time, so MUCH to do..assignments+midterms=argh!
till then..
~zaijian~

Tagging-menagging~~

2009-02-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

feefa told me to do this tagging thing..kinda fun..hehehe =)

1. Snap the picture of both inner and outer of your purse
2. Introduce your purse brand,price and where you buy
3. Take out what ever its inside your purse

4. Tagged other 7 person

2.Elle, price RM189, papa bought it somewhere in KL..dunno where exactly..eheh

3.erm..wats inside..

plaster
beBlack membership card
Sutera Harbour membership card
Yogurberry coupon
bloodtype card
got some coins
heh..just look at the pic la to see wats inside...

IC, student card & lesen P was in the studentcard holder

4. now lemme see..who am I gonna tag..

feefa!
sherhan
irfaan
zeeqa
amoi
hannah
sis Nadz

done tagging! phew..okay till then..

~~au revoir~~

Rise of The Magnificient Ira! (tiru dari Underworld 3) =P

2009-02-01T11:21:00.000+08:00

okay...yuran..done! lesen..done! phewww...dats a relief...freedom at last....not!

ehehe..must not forget the assignments...which are pilling up..like Mt. Everest..owh man~~

hahaha..but nvm..this is university life..assignments is a must! so watever~

huuuu..but i'm really excited about swimming class!! we get to learn all sorts of swimming..err..styles??? freestyle, breaststroke, bubbling etc..keh3

then..for the subject Basic Navigation & Seamenship..we have to do a practical+camp! yay! but the lecturer said during the practical we have to jump into the sea..in the middle of the night..yikes! freezing water+sharks? huhu..hope it would go smoothly..*amin!*

and not forgetting..Marine Night! which would be held on 28th March..woah dats a long way to go. but theres still the excitement feeling..the theme on dat nite would be Hawaiian. okay..wats am i supposed to wear? help! any suggestions 4 me? huhu

okay..gotta go finish up my assignments+homework+study..ehehe..if papa finds out dat i'm blogging right now, i'm dead meat!! no0o0o0~~

till then..

~au revoir~

*above are peektures from Kasih Sayang Resort

"I wish money could grow on trees"..how often do you hear that??

2009-01-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

yuran 4 2nd sem=RM1338, driving lessons=RM300++ (i suck when it comes 2 driving =p), jpj test=RM150 (blum konfem lulus lg), goggles+swimming attire=RM200++, digicam=RM1899...etc...
Ira ni mmg high maintenance la...so sorry Papa n Mama..it seems that i'm only a burden to both of u..suda la result not very good..haish..very2 disappointing..
sometimes i wonder..wouldn't it better i never existed? apa sumbangan me to the family? kinda hard to come up with an answer 4 that. i'm just a bad investment. mmg rugi teruk la my parents. spend thousands but in return, only a major disappointment. hmm..
a will to my parents: if i ever end up having to depend on a life supporting-machine..just pull the plug..at least i would no longer be a burden to both of u. minus one child to support. i'm saying this with a heavy heart, but if its for the best, then... (wow. i almost cried while thinking bout this)
besides the money issue.. i also have 2 deal with my brokenheart..i'm letting him go..
i need 2 find another guy who i can trust and will make me really happy. please come soon whoever u are..
*Ira in deppressed -mode*
till then...
~au revoir~

Sigh~~

2009-01-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

huhu..new semester has begun..now it's only the 1st week but i'm already exhausted..aiyoo
this semester i have to take 8 subjects again but now plus one kokum, which is Renang! eheh
feel lyke listing down the subjects i'm taking this semester so here it is:-
1) Pengenalan Oseanografi Kimia
2) Asas Pelayaran & Kepelautan
3) Pengenalan Marikultur
4) Kimia Asas
5) Pengaturcaraan Komputer & Simulasi
6) Bahasa & Komunikasi
7) Bahasa Mandarin Thp 1
8) Hubungan Etnik
besides sorting out the timetable, i also have to deal with the jpj thingy..set the date for the test la i mean. haishhh~~
thennnnn...skrg pun byk duit terbang to buy the reference book..which cost RM60+-. Each!
not forgetting the fee for 2nd sem!! argh!
ehem2..so that's all for now..i'll update again later when i have tyme..ahaha.
owh yeah! I got a new camera! Canon G10. hehehehehe....weee~~ XD
till then..
~au revoir XOXO~

hmmmm...new year...yay??

2009-01-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

oops..kinda late to update my blog..well watever..
we the Maleks celebrated new year at The Cottage, Kundasang..my god..it was sooo freezing there! achoo! but it was fun!! hannah with her 'juling catwalk'...huhu..i hurt my jaw for laughing so hard..eheh =P
and Amat also called me to wish Happy New Year..and to discuss sumthin2..
hmmm...sadly b4 the new years..got problem with 'him'..confused+disappointed=heartbroken..so i am no longer with him..eventhough we were never a couple and he is soooooooo far far away..anyways..i think it's 4 the best..
sooo...wat now..hmmm...owh yeah! class starts 2mrw! awww...darn it! no more holiday..
and look at the time..yikes! it's 1.40am and i have 2 wake up early 2mrw..sooooo...gotta go!! till then... XD
~au revoir~

Holiday with the Razis!!!

2008-12-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

hmm..kinda lazy to type..but still want to update my blog..ahaha
now lemme see...first we went to Gayana Island on Tuesday..had lunch at the restaurant there, then went to the marine research centre..did some coral planting and then..kayak!! yeah!! the weather was perfect! didn't get any sunburns..huhuhu~~
the next day we went to the Lok Kawi Zoo..saw some animals..bla bla bla..i got the chance to feed the elephants though..ngehehehe...then after dat we went to Melinsung Summer Bay..stayed there for two days...
on friday we went to Kundasang!!!! owh yeah! it was freakin awesome! the chalet at Hotel Prkasa was nice..a bit small though..and it was freezing there!! but no matter..overall it was fun..1st day we went to the Kundasang War Memorial Park. very2 nice place..then at nyte..we played UNO..hehehehehe...
then the next day we went to the....errr..okay i forgot the name of dat place..it's a place where we feed the fish, they would swim around us and eat right from our hands..sumthin lyke dat la..then we went 2 poring..1st went to the canopy walk..freakin TIRING!! got muscle-ache dat nyte..darn..
on da last day in Kundasang..we went to eat..err...brunch?? i think dats the word..after dat we went to the National park..visit Rajah Lodge! woah...i really2 missed the old tymes when the Razis would stay together at the Rajah Lodge..
owh yeah..the people who enjoyed the holidays with us were Papa, Mama, Uncle Kancil, Nadz, me (Ira), Nadim, Nadzmi, Irfaan, Amirrul, Razeeq and Akmal.
okay i guess dats it..i'll update again when i get mood to type..huhu..
~au revoir~

me? a bookworm?

2008-12-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

yeah rite..more to 'novel-worm' i think..aha
i went to warisan square just now with mum, sis & Nadim. It was sis who wanted to go out to buy a novel, New Moon, the sequel to Twilight. i just tagged along. Unfortunately, we couldn't find the book! not at Times & even Popular bookstore. too bad 4 sis, it's just not ur day i guess. and it turns out, i'm the one who ends up buying novels. 3 of them!! hohoho..can't help it when i see interesting novels. once i see one..my brain just screams "i want!!'. hehehehehe...
just so u know, the books that i've bought are Sepulchre-Kate Mosse, Hex and the Single Girl-Valerie Frankel and Forget About It-Caprice Crane. Actually i've been searching for Sepulchre for decades!! hehe..yesh i'm exaggerating..it was just a few months actually..ngeh ngeh ngeh~~ =P
dats it i guess..tyme to devote myself to the novels..can't wait to finish readin all of it! hehehe

~adios~

A shocking & weird experience~~

2008-11-30T00:54:00.000+08:00

This world is filled with all kinds of people..n i just found out about it...it's shocking!! i know..and the story begins..
On the evening of November 29th, my family n i went out 4 dinner to celebrate mum's bday *Happy Birthday Mum!* & my parents 22nd anniversary, not knowing that an unexpected incident was about to befall upon us Rifais..aiseh..mcm crita seram pla kn..ehe =P
Papa chose Hyatt to be the venue to celebrate our family's special event..there was a buffet on that cold, chilly night..i think i'm gettin carried away here..oops!
As i was busy finishing my dinner, it was Mexican food btw (4got the names though), papa went to the buffet table to get more food. Papa waited & waited for his ABC, then suddenly! *sound effects*
an unknown guy approached him from behind and he..that stranger..the unknown person.....introduced himself & said he wants to get to know his daughter. Silaka! mau berkenalan rupanya...Papa got the shock of his life i guess..hahaha!! btw, he targeted Nadiah, not me. Thank God!!
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Information retrieved about the unknown guy:
Name: Mr. N****.
Age: 30++
Address: KL
Occupation: Businessman. (i think)
Physical characteristics: Fair skin,not that tall,not that handsome
= not bad i guess
**************End****************
seriously dat guy is weird but brave though..wow..i wouldn't even think about it..approaching sumone's dad..a complete stranger..no way..no thanx~~
then..surprise! a bday cake! by who? Mr. N la..mama quite embarassed bcuz the waiters were singing the Happy Birthday song..quite loud btw..
then papa called the waitress 2 pay the bills, the waitress disappeared 4 a while, then the waitress came back again n said the bill was already paid by Mr. N...talk about RICH! our bills were supposed 2 be RM300++..woah...is he serious?
unfortunately..all the things he did didn't convince me..not even one bit! in this world..we cannot be too trusting ya know..ehehe.. XD
hmmm...my blog dis tyme is all about him..darn! must be more about me! aha..next tyme la..
dats all i guess..till nex tyme..
~~sayonara~~
owh! i attached some pictures too~~

Hello people~~

2008-11-25T00:55:00.001+08:00

ehem2..okay..finally i have my own blog..*u hear me feefa?? i have a blog already!! * hehehe
soooo....erm..due to the fact dat i'm currently stuck at home during the holidays (for now) & not much 'significant' events happened, i don't have much 2 say..
maybe i'll talk a wittle bit bout my birthday..uhuhu..
someone 'special' called me about 5 minutes b4 my bday..all da way from egypt..hehe..u know who u r..u made my day...ehe
then during the day, mum gave money 2 sis 2 buy donuts from Big Apple! yay! yummy!! but too sweet~~ so i only ate 1 and a half of the donuts..aha.. XD
then 2 days after my bday my dear fren Sabbree a.k.a. Amat mailed me a bday card..so sweet of him..*thanx Amat!!*
dats it i guess..owh! b4 i 4get..mum gave me money 4 my bday present..so the result is....shopping!! woohoo~~
~au revoir~